just now that i know that i'm not or never been a favour to them..maybe i'm just a nobody person..they not even want to do anything with me..and when i ask why..their answer was they don't want to..i'm so disappointed..having this title as headmaster of this dorm but not being heard is not a good thing to have...i saw her smilng but i saw it to that she only smile to me when it's just me and her..if there's anybody there..she never smile to me just like she smiled when i'm alone..but it's okey..as long as i can see her smile..

aku memang x fhm prasaan org ke?? memang itu ke aku sblm ni?? kenape x de sape yg tegur aku drpd dulu?? mungkin betul slame ni aku sakitkan hati die..aku sibuk nk die faham perasaan aku sdangkan aku x pernah fhm prasaan die..in fact aku sakitkan hati die lagi..on and on..maybe till now..aku masih x kenal diri aku sndiri...i'm so sorry for what i've done..i may not be good for u but i'll try to be good from now on..

this haze is killing me..i'm busy with my exam.."he" bother me at this crucial time..i hate them..why must i faced this now??

next week will be my sejarah paper 3, addmath, physic and agama...omg..i am so worried that i can't score..my dad said "if u can get straight A's i'll take u to overseas.." well i know him well and i'm 100% sure it won't happen..i'm so dissappointed..well that's that for today..see u soon..

yeppi..today's the end of sejarah paper 1 and 2..fuhh..it was almost like a disaster..but it turns out well..anyway..i didn't mean to let she heard it but it's the truth after all..i feel left alone esp last night..i don't hate it but i just don't like it..and about kak oat..i don't know how t tell this..she was like pretending not to know about it..and i confused..well at least my relay with others are better.. 

tonight's the night..i may not ready and don't have any backup..but, it proves that i am totally sincerely towards them about what i am about to say..
"i'm so sorry for what already happened..i know i'm to hush on it and not pay any respect towards all of u"
"but still i want to know what was my mistake?"
"please tell me my fault and i'll try make it better"
"let settle it down by tonight and please make up by tonight"
"it's not that we don't want to apologise but we are afraid that u will get mad that night while the next day is our first exam.."

those are the sentence that i'm about to say..hoping i can make it a reality
please save our relationship..esp with kak oat..i don't even get to see her smile again by now..even others just feel annoyed standing by me..maybe they feel burdensome with person like me who "try" to tackle form 5..perhaps it is..i can here she laughed from here but as soon as i enter the dorm..it must be quite..i know who i am..i don't even deserved to get this pkd title anyway..
#goodluckforsejarah #holiday #chemistryandphysicarewaiting

today is my first day of my final exam..omg!! started badly with bm..which i didn't had any ideas to write my essay..i hope the same thing will not happen tomorrow..btw, sandra said she wants to do meeting dorm with form 5 tonight..i wonder if it will be just fine..

here i go again..it's getting complicated..who knows it will be like this isn't it?? i thought we just awkward bcuz u had another junior who is better, smarter and lots of laughter than me..but then i knew, it's bcuc all seniors hate me..i don't know how and when all of these started..i wish u would know my feeling..i still save epi 2 senior pic in my purse..i don't have any intention to throw it away..why was that?? bcuz there's still left a piece of love towards all of u in my heart..but why can't u see it?? i miss our old moment..old times when there was no hatred..please save this relationship of ours...please let me spend this few last moment by doing something that u could remember..=(