it's been a whole week of eidul-fitri but i still don't get anything in return of these days...i wonder how my raya festival would be next year....i just still wishing that that days will be the best day of my life...

since i move on to this new home 2 years ago....i barely can't have any peaceful time....there must be something bad every month, week, days or even seconds....i hope i could die right now....

ha!!! what do u know..??? everyone keep on using me like i'm their puppet...if this continue...i will transform completely to the real me....actually i don't want to be truly me because the old me was horrible...i don't think anyone would like to see it if they knew my past.....but i guess that's what they wanted.....i already start to fly....if they don't stop using me, i will  keep flying and i would not fall down if i don't say so.....so good bye 'fake me' and hello 'REAL me'........

it's been a long time i didn't open this blog....the good news is 'he' gave me a ring....really pretty...that was after i gave him a ring....:(....the bad news is that 'silly girl' laughing at me every time she see him.....so annoying...!!! i just wish that she go away from my life forever...! but about 'al' i guess my statement make him and shafriel get out of this school.....since that i starting to hate syahir because he scolded me and he say "why don't u just say politely to him....why should u give that statement???" he always back-up the person i hate....i know u'll read this syahir....i can't hide it anymore...:(

isn't it beautiful.....??? tomorrow i'm gonna start go to school...AGAIN....well that was so called student.....study always....especially when our badge starting to use PBS since last year....i can't stand it....it's to hard 4 me to face it....i know i do the best and the hardest i can do....lately....ha!! speaking about this...i just can't think that i can go any further....that's it 4 today......

wow...guess what....i totally nervous to hear his announcement about our relationship.....i pretty sure that moment will make my future better...i just don't know what to do....wish me luck...=)

what would u feel when u receive a sms that told u some kind like this....
"actually i like your friend....since i know u i did fall in love at her..."....or...."i can't make any decisions yet about us...i just don't think i could hold in our relationship anymore.."...if i receive this....of course i gone mad....i will treat him like an idiot.....just imagine it has made me suffer.....what if it happens AGAIN????

well....i glad that i found my true love even through it was hard 4 me to accept him in my life but i have to face the fact that he loves me.....i just so thankful that he always brighten my days....all day long...and after all we've been through i just can't think how much i owe u after i crush his heart and maybe he already have my 'replacement'....i hope that he will find a better girl than me....='(

assalamualaikum....beautiful new year isn't it??? but something happen that really unexcpected....i may do some mistake but how could 'this' be any worst than i ever imagine....hmmm....speaking about this...i don't think i have to move on with this terrible life....i just wish i could forget all about that and build a new life...=)