why this is happening to me??

hmm..those sad and happy moments suddenly came into my mind..makes my heart miserable and !@$%^&*...i don't know...feels like he deserve to feel it..feels like he shouldn't face those painful time..feels like...i just don't know..but what i wish for is...i wish i could be in love again..but there's one thing that i want to make it straight..time flew fast..i'm no longer the old me..i've changed and so do you..so don't ever take my attitude seriously...my inner side is still the same..the difference would only effect on my personality..